I continue to struggle getting this weight off...it's not been easy. I keep battling my brain. I've discovered that I can pretty much eat anything I want as long as I chew like crazy first. So I have "outsmarted" myself. Ugh. Sometimes I really piss myself off. I'm stubborn and I can talk myself into ANYTHING! I also can't say no to anyone very easily....including me!
I did really well on Atkins. I got down to 207. When I got off, I went crazy and started gaining again. Now I am back to 216 this morning. So here I go again....back on today. I'm eating my breakfast of eggs and sausage as I type.
If I can just get down to my goal, I think I can manage it with exercise and Atkins when I get above a certain weight. It's getting down in the first place that is difficult. I have already bagged up all of my fat clothes so there is no way I am getting back into that bag. I was almost a steady 16 but now I am a full 18 again. This road is rough. I have a friend that had a different procedure (sleeve) this summer and she is rocking it. She is way smaller than me and seems to not have any problems with eating. I am trying not to be jealous. Every time I see her I wonder if I chose the right procedure for me.
On the exercise front....I walked a 10 mile race in Austin two weekends ago. It was super fun but I have not been the same since! My hips and hip flexors are stiff and I don't feel as limber as I was before the race. I think I need to start taking joint support meds...knees and hips are getting old. BUT....I DID the race! I walked ten miles! Holy Moly! I would not have imagined such an event a year ago....NO WAY! I was going to post some pictures of the actual race but the photos that they took always caught my boobs on a downward step...I needed an upswing picture but didn't get one. :)
Here are some before and after pics - we went with an 80's theme...It was a lot of fun.
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| My "sassy" face needs some work... |
I am going to see my parents and my Grandpa next weekend. I want to look my best which means I am going to do everything I can to get down as much as I can this week. It's not time to let off, I have to keep working. I wish I made time to blog more often...I always feel so much more energized about my weight loss when I do. I need the feedback from my friends and family, it always rejuvenates me. I need to commit to blogging, even if it's a small one, once a week. I need the accountability. This battle of the bulge is a rough one. I might lose a few battles, but I WILL WIN THIS WAR! I'm still committed to being under 200 by my birthday. It will happen.
Hang in there, Jen! You're doing great! --Ashley
ReplyDeleteSis,if there is anything that I've learned about you, during the past year, it's that you're a fighter! Never give up, and never get down on yourself. You are loved, and thought about alot! :) You have helped me get to the 75lb. mark. My gym is going to feature me on their facebook page, come the beginning of May. I plan on hitting the "century mark", by August 1st. If I was with you right now, I would give you THE biggest hug ever. Hey, I bet we would have made great workout partners. Keep up the great work Sis........love ya
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